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Time to read: 10 minutes

I could have saved this for Monday, but I figured the thoughts running through my mind while I made pancakes for the kids this morning were an apt New Year topic.

You know lately I’ve been going through some old 3rd person books. I revamped a four-book series and it took me four months. Two rounds of editing, waiting for proofs, and redoing their covers. The proofs will come today and the last step is just pushing Publish on Amazon and swapping out files on IngramSpark. Then I can put that series away, and maybe even start promoting them a little bit because I won’t be wincing, wondering what people are reading.

Yesterday, I looked for the Vellum files of my erotica novellas and couldn’t find them. I remembered that they were lost in a Mac update and if I wanted to have them, I’d have to open the PDF in Word, re-import that .docx file into Vellum and reformat them. It’s not so bad, I grouped them into threes and so that’s what I did. I started that process, anyway. Got the front and back matter fixed again, though all that could be updated, and edited the first novella which is 25,000 words. I finished last night and moved on to the next, but then I got to thinking, “Why am I doing this?” I had a legitimate reason for doing my Rocky Point series. People were finding them without me promoting them, and since I hadn’t looked at them in four years (Amazon says publication dates were in January of 2020) I knew they could use a polish.

The only trouble with this way of thinking is, all my old books could use a polish. Scratch that. Every singe book I have ever published could use a polish, because that’s the way an author’s life works. We grow, we change, maybe our styles mature, and I doubt there’s one author out there who could go back to a book they’ve previously published and not find one thing they would want change.

So, this really just begs the question, How should we spend our time? Do I need be using my time going back to books so old that of course there’s going to be tons wrong with them, despite the fact these were edited by someone other than me, and I can tell they were. I haven’t found any typos so far except a sentence didn’t have a period and at one point a character had a tank top on and it changed to a t-shirt. What would I gain re-editing six erotica novellas? What would I gain re-editing the first trilogy I ever wrote and published. Would it help me get ahead? And should I always think about getting ahead?

A new year always calls for dissecting how you’re going to spend the next twelve months. They feel shiny and new, the world is your oyster, and everyone wants to start off with a bang. Hit the ground running. I’ve never treated a new year as anything special because I had goals and a plan and didn’t need the extra oomph a new year provides. January first is the same as July first and October first. I always had the drive to get things done, no matter what was going on in my life at the time.

So I stopped editing the second novella in my erotica series and closed out the Vellum file. The files that are published are okay, and I don’t know if Amazon has hidden them in their erotica dungeon or not. I don’t even know if I labeled them erotica when I published them, and since then, even if I had, Amazon didn’t get weird about explicit material until recently and they could still show up if someone looked. Not that anyone is going to. The couples on the covers are in bed, and Amazon won’t let me run ads to them. I could on Facebook, but the only way I would do that is if I re-edited them, and so we’re running around in circles, but after everything I just typed, I think we can discern it’s not worth it.

Books are going to have typos, even heavily edited books have typos and inconsistency issues because humans human, and there’s nothing you can do about it. I guess when I start thinking of my imperfect backlist, that’s when imposter syndrome takes over, but when that happens, I know I haven’t been reading enough. I’ve read many imperfect books since I started my indie career, books that have sold thousands of copies (you can tell just by the number of reviews they have), and I’ve said readers just don’t care as long as you give them a good story. I truly believe this, I just have to start applying that to my own books.

What does this mean for 2025? I need to stop going back. Editing my Rocky Point series was fun and I liked revisiting those characters . . . but I lost four months. In those four months I could have finished editing Loss and Damages, the next book I’m going to publish in September, and either made a good start writing my next standalone (I might have even finished. I can write 80k words in three months), or began editing the first two books I have written in the next series I want to publish. Only I can answer if those four months were worth it, but since I’ve seen the end result and I’m proud of what that series is, I guess it’s safe to say it was. But going back any further won’t do me much good, and if I ever do finish reformatting and re-editing those erotica books, and even my Tower City Trilogy, that kind of thing will have to be a side project because this is the honest to goodness truth: it won’t matter to my career hobby if I do those things or not. It would be for my own personal satisfaction only. Those books were published to the best of my ability at the time, just like Captivated by Her and Addicted to Her, the first books I published when I switched to first person present. Getting better is indicative of growth, and we all do that. Or should, anyway. Your first book should sound different than your tenth. We all grow and change, we work with different editors who use different skills and give us different perspectives, we work with different betas who give us different opinions. We read different books and learn different techniques. We listen to craft podcasts and marketing podcasts and learn to keep plot points opened-ended until the last book to promote read-through and learn to write bonus content that only newsletter subscribers have access to. There are lots we do to level up our craft, and that will show in every new book we write. Going back will always be futile because older books will always be lacking. It’s just the way it is.

But, you know, I’ve struggled to find purpose in this writing and publishing endeavor, struggled to find a reason to keep going. I spent more on ads in 2024 than I have, ever, and knowing that has kind of left me feeling deflated. I love finding new readers, and I know you have to spend money to make money, but it’s draining to run ads, spending a dollar only to make a dollar. Creating them, keeping an eye on them, watching them appear to spend more money than they earn–I say appear because most times they don’t (if they are wasting money you have to look at what you’re doing and the product you’re trying to sell, but that’s a lesson for another day). Facebook and Amazon bill you at different times than your royalties are paid out, so you have to be patient when comparing ad spend vs. royalties earned. The marketing part is a letdown, but I need it or my sales dashboard would be empty which I know would hurt me more than breaking even. I’m treading water, but like I said in my 2024 recap, I’m not unhappy. I just have to keep reminding myself of that.

Recently I looked at my follower count for my pen name (VM Rheault) and I was surprised to find I have 325 followers. That’s 325 reasons to keep going. I have 734 newsletter subscribers and have a 34% open rate most days I send one out. That’s 250 reasons to keep going. I have readers who care, and I value every one.

Today I’m setting aside my third person stuff and opening my Loss and Damages file. I love these characters, love the cover I already made. I’ll be happy to get this book on preorder. What I’ll do after that, I’m not sure. After so much editing, I’m a little intimidated to open a new Word file and start a book from nothing. I’ll need to sit with those characters a bit, work out the plot and get comfortable with who they are and what they’re going to go through. I’ve been thinking about them a lot in the past few months and scary or not, I’ll be happy (and relieved) to write their story. I already have the cover for that book done as well, so maybe working on something completely new is what I need perk myself up after a year of editing. But, unlike the title of this blog post, I don’t think every second needs to be accounted for. You don’t have to spend every single second trying to get ahead. That’s only a recipe for burnout and takes the joy away from whatever activity you’re doing. In my last post, I said my publishing is more of a hobby than career, and at this point, it is. I only make what I put into it, and it’s dejecting to think if I didn’t spend any money, I would make the same amount . . . zero. But, it’s freeing too, and I have tweaked my ads already in preparation for the coming year, but I’ll explain more about that in my post on Monday.

Tiffany Yates Martin came out with a new book not long ago called The Intuitive Author: How to Grow & Sustain a Happier Writing Career, and I plan to pick it up as a New Year’s gift to myself. I think it might help me gain perspective when it comes to how long I’ve been doing this and how to work through my accomplishments or lack thereof thus far. I love her other book on editing, so I know I’ll like this book too. If you want to check it out, look here: https://www.amazon.com/Intuitive-Author-Sustain-Happier-Writing/dp/1950830098

Thats all I have today. May the New Year bring you productivity and prosperity in whatever way that means to you. Subscribe to the blog if you haven’t already, and let’s trudge through 2025 together.

Until next time!